A Place where thought are turned into words and you are being heard.

Have you ever felt like you have to keep quiet because you are afraid of saying the wrong thing or offending someone or hurting someone's feeling, yet you ignore your own feelings.

I am a person who speaks my mind. I believe that if I don't agree with something I will make it clear. I believe in fighting for other when they can't fight for themselves. Yet I have always find that people don't want to hear what I have to say. Either because they do not like to be confronted with the truth or like being called out on their bullshit. So now I have made silence my friend, at least in my own head I'm heard.

So I created "In the life of Who the fuck cares" I wanted a place where it is safe to speak our mind without anyone judging. A place where people can come to when they feel alone and unheard. A place where you can have good days and bad days and that is okay.

With the conditions I have recently been diagnosed, I have lately encountered that people get tired of hearing, "I'm not feeling well'" "I'm tired" "I can't". People get sick of you being sick. Because as you know with Bi-polar and Border line personality disorder you can't help how you feel. At one minute your fine and it feels like you can conquer the world and in a split second something happen and your mood completely changes, and all you want to do is crawl under a rock and never come out.

I have recently caught myself simply keeping quiet because no one listens, no one cares and no one understands.

And while everyone's life is moving forward, you feel like you are in a viscous cycle from happy to sad, sad to happy and so the wheel keeps on turning. You struggle to be happy, you struggle enjoying things, you don't accept when someone tells you they love you, because who can love someone like you. All this while you don't love yourself.

You get dressed just to feel uncomfortable in your own skin. You smile just to hide the feelings you are feeling inside, you don't say what's on your mind because who want to hear your thoughts anyway, you struggle to verbalize how your feeling because you don't even understand them yourself.

You would rather listen to someone else problems than to verbalize your own. You hide behind "I'm fine" "Don't worry" and silence. Just to scream in your head "I can't do this anymore"

Words fail you so you choose silence instead. No one asks to be ill. No one asks for what they care going through, but we do ask for others to understand, for others to listen just for a second. We only ask for someone who can sit with us in silence even when no word is spoken. For someone to understand your thoughts, because within silence no words are needed as energy can scream louder than any words can and that in that silence you are heard.

When others don't understand you, I do...