Feeling unheard - The story of Me.

For those who don't know me. This is Me. I am a 33 year old female, sharing her daily life with daily people.

In my 33 years on this earth, I have often felt like I am not being heard and I am sure I am not the only one. Did you ever feel like that?

Have you ever been surrounded in a work meeting, or amongst friends and family, but every time you want to say something the people around you just keep talking, without even acknowledging you or even giving you a chance to contribute to the topic at hand? Well I have.

I can remember numerous time being talked over, ignored or even dismissed, which in return made me feel small. I would often then just stop talking or engaging with those around me. I am not a very sociable person these days but I do like to contribute my 5c if needs be. Yet I found that people don't care to hear what you have to say. This made me feel rejected, not fitting in, not important and simply put dismissed.

This can be from someone being on their phone while you are talking, or someone starting to talk to someone else while you are talking to them. I like quality time, conversations about life, love ect. Quality time is one of my love languages. Now for someone who has grown up with rejection this hurt. Every time it felt like someone was stabbing me in the heart.

This caused me to become introverted, rather than going somewhere, I would rather prefer staying home. I would avoid social events and even family gatherings. I would become silent, simply not engaging in conversations. And even though some might say that I have a valid point, this has caused me not to build relationships with co-workers or anybody for that matter. People called me stuck up or miss goody to shoes. Making me unapproachable. This created me to start doubting myself and who I am. Thoughts that I am not good enough or people don't like me started to emerged. Have you ever been in a room full of people but still feels like you are alone? That is how I sometime feel.

And for those that really know me, knows I like talking, I like learning about people and their stories, I have a bubbly personality, I love making jokes, I love having fun, and I am not as stuck up as people make me out to be, even if I have to say so myself. I still to this day, don't feel comfortable around people.

So if you have felt like this, just know, you be you. Don't let people put you in their boxes. Say what's on your mind, be bold. And if you ever feel lonely just know I am always here to lend and ear.

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